Blossoming

Growing up is tough. Our emotions run high and it can be really hard to keep up with them. But sometimes, like a race, we aim for the finish line and get over it. Many of life's dealings are hard to handle and like the strong people we try to be, we don't always show this.

Holding back tears is always tough because letting people see that you can be weak and vulnerable causes them to forget your strengths. If a loved one makes you upset and is unfortunate enough to witness your tears then there is a possibility that the often uncontrollable vulnerability you have shown them is something they cling on to in terms of never letting it go and occasionally, the intent of what they said wasn't meant in the way you understood it. However, sometimes the case is that we understand things that are said in the exact way they were meant to be taken and even this causes upset.

Forgiving and forgetting tends to be something I like to say I live by, but in truth it is something I find quite hard to do. I think this is because I have formed so many relationships with various people in my life and I wouldn't say I get attached easily, but that when I become close to someone, like anyone does, I care for them to the point where I think that every little thing I do really matters. It doesn't, although gestures can go a long way. Therefore, if I feel as though I've said something that was misinterpreted (and I do on many occasions), then I instantly feel guilty and must apologise because I wasn't thinking straight at the time. Vice versa, if something is said to me by someone who knows me pretty well then I would like to think that they would do the same.

Obviously, we are all different. We all have different strengths, weaknesses, personality traits etc. but these make up the whole of us as individuals, if a little bit of us was taken away, we wouldn't be the same. Without that voluntary commitment or without that cake you made for someone and then ended up eating most of, would you be the same person? I think the majority of us tend to care either too much or too little and I happen to fall in to the too much category. This isn't always a good thing but I guess it makes me an individual.

Whilst caring can cause change to your surroundings, it can sometimes (for the good), change you. So, blossom I shall.

Dotty
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