The past few days it's really dawned on me how soon it is until I leave for University; just over three weeks to be exact. I feel scared, nervous and excited. Going to University is something I have had my mind set on for a good few years and I knew that when the time would come to make the decision of where to go, moving away from home was the right choice for me.
However, it has been on my mind that it may not end up being the right choice for me. There are too many factors drawing me to stay at home. My family's here, not to mention my life, but I know that I need to move away to start everything afresh, to make me more independent and to learn to rely on those around me a little less. There are various positives and negatives to staying and leaving, but the negatives I feel towards leaving are a part of the unknown so how can I have even decided they are negatives?
At this point in time, I'm just feeling conflicted. Moving away, but specifically to London, is what I need as far as opportunities go. I am going, I have my place and accommodation confirmed. It's not that I don't want to go, it's more that I don't want to leave the place that I call home.
My biggest fear (preventing me from wanting to leave) is that I'm going at this head on, on my own. Yes, my friends are leaving for Universtiy too and yes, my friends and family are only a phonecall away, but from the minute I'm dropped off and moved in to a bedroom that isn't mine, that's when I know that I'll be alone. Everything will be down to me and although I know that the change will be good for me, I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
Dotty
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However, it has been on my mind that it may not end up being the right choice for me. There are too many factors drawing me to stay at home. My family's here, not to mention my life, but I know that I need to move away to start everything afresh, to make me more independent and to learn to rely on those around me a little less. There are various positives and negatives to staying and leaving, but the negatives I feel towards leaving are a part of the unknown so how can I have even decided they are negatives?
At this point in time, I'm just feeling conflicted. Moving away, but specifically to London, is what I need as far as opportunities go. I am going, I have my place and accommodation confirmed. It's not that I don't want to go, it's more that I don't want to leave the place that I call home.
My biggest fear (preventing me from wanting to leave) is that I'm going at this head on, on my own. Yes, my friends are leaving for Universtiy too and yes, my friends and family are only a phonecall away, but from the minute I'm dropped off and moved in to a bedroom that isn't mine, that's when I know that I'll be alone. Everything will be down to me and although I know that the change will be good for me, I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
Dotty
X
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