I realised I hadn't blogged since my first year of Uni ended, so here's a little update...
I PASSED MY FIRST YEAR! Ok, so it's rare for people to not pass their first year but going in to the start of my degree blind (like most students do), and with very little knowledge of the academic journey I was about to embark on, passing is a massive achievement for me!
I've hit many brick walls financially, emotionally and creatively, but I feel I am a different person to the one I was this time last year, for all the best reasons! I've now experienced living away from home for a long period of time and being able to do everything for myself. My eyes have been opened to my true potential and I can actually see the future I want for myself within reach. The ladder of how to actually get there is slowly but surely starting to construct itself and I am more determined than ever to meet its highest height!
Moving out of halls, compared to moving in was so much easier. I had less stuff, wasn't panicking about anything and knew my next destination was home rather than the unknown. It felt good.
I have made friends with the loveliest people and have come to realise that my Uni experience so far, although hasn't been like everybody else's, it's been a lot better that I think I imagined.
I haven't done the clubbing, excessive drinking, pulling all nighters to meet deadlines stint...and that's just not me. More importantly, I've realised it's ok that I haven't done all that because not only is there time for it, but also it's key to stay true to yourself. Being committed and having a drive to want to do well is me, and I think that has shone through and through.
Starting Uni didn't go the way I planned. I expected to form a close unit of friends within my flat, flat parties, a wild freshers experience and none of that really happened. I didn't throw myself in to the student life as much as I wish I had, but I made friends in other ways, and perhaps better ones too. The experience I've had so far is mine and I'm really happy it's turned out the way it has.
As of next year, I'll be moving further away from my Uni campus and in to a flat share with my sister and her friends from her degree. Knowing I'll actually have a place to call home is going to make returning to London slightly easier and also I know what to expect of my degree now, so I can go mentally prepared.
I truly feel I wouldn't have got through it all if it wasn't for my strong family unit back home. Having a mum who can provide reassurance and support really makes life easier, as does having a wonderful boyfriend who comes to visit you. Also, having my sister and best friend living in the same city as me made me feel less alone at times when I did feel lonely.
I was fortunate enough to have my best friend Em living down the road from me as that was where the halls for her Uni was based. On my first proper day away from home, I felt upset, lonely and a bit lost but she was there for me and made me feel at ease. Without that, I think it would have been a lot harder to settle. Of course, I had no clue I was going to be that devastated to be away from home. Since September, everything has just been unexpected...
Em is now in Melbourne, studying for five months as part of her Art degree. She is gutsy and bold and it's reminded me why I chose to study in London. For OPPORTUNITY, and guess what? I haven't utilsied this enough! Truth is, I don't think I'd have been able to take on much more than I did. I went through a LOT of change and I think pushing myself to do anything more would have been really difficult, but now I've found my feet and the route I'm headed towards.
I finally feel like what I want is so near, so I guess I just need to keep aiming for it.
First year went quickly, so I NEED to make the next two worth it!
Dotty
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I PASSED MY FIRST YEAR! Ok, so it's rare for people to not pass their first year but going in to the start of my degree blind (like most students do), and with very little knowledge of the academic journey I was about to embark on, passing is a massive achievement for me!
I've hit many brick walls financially, emotionally and creatively, but I feel I am a different person to the one I was this time last year, for all the best reasons! I've now experienced living away from home for a long period of time and being able to do everything for myself. My eyes have been opened to my true potential and I can actually see the future I want for myself within reach. The ladder of how to actually get there is slowly but surely starting to construct itself and I am more determined than ever to meet its highest height!
Moving out of halls, compared to moving in was so much easier. I had less stuff, wasn't panicking about anything and knew my next destination was home rather than the unknown. It felt good.
I have made friends with the loveliest people and have come to realise that my Uni experience so far, although hasn't been like everybody else's, it's been a lot better that I think I imagined.
I haven't done the clubbing, excessive drinking, pulling all nighters to meet deadlines stint...and that's just not me. More importantly, I've realised it's ok that I haven't done all that because not only is there time for it, but also it's key to stay true to yourself. Being committed and having a drive to want to do well is me, and I think that has shone through and through.
Starting Uni didn't go the way I planned. I expected to form a close unit of friends within my flat, flat parties, a wild freshers experience and none of that really happened. I didn't throw myself in to the student life as much as I wish I had, but I made friends in other ways, and perhaps better ones too. The experience I've had so far is mine and I'm really happy it's turned out the way it has.
As of next year, I'll be moving further away from my Uni campus and in to a flat share with my sister and her friends from her degree. Knowing I'll actually have a place to call home is going to make returning to London slightly easier and also I know what to expect of my degree now, so I can go mentally prepared.
I truly feel I wouldn't have got through it all if it wasn't for my strong family unit back home. Having a mum who can provide reassurance and support really makes life easier, as does having a wonderful boyfriend who comes to visit you. Also, having my sister and best friend living in the same city as me made me feel less alone at times when I did feel lonely.
I was fortunate enough to have my best friend Em living down the road from me as that was where the halls for her Uni was based. On my first proper day away from home, I felt upset, lonely and a bit lost but she was there for me and made me feel at ease. Without that, I think it would have been a lot harder to settle. Of course, I had no clue I was going to be that devastated to be away from home. Since September, everything has just been unexpected...
Em is now in Melbourne, studying for five months as part of her Art degree. She is gutsy and bold and it's reminded me why I chose to study in London. For OPPORTUNITY, and guess what? I haven't utilsied this enough! Truth is, I don't think I'd have been able to take on much more than I did. I went through a LOT of change and I think pushing myself to do anything more would have been really difficult, but now I've found my feet and the route I'm headed towards.
I finally feel like what I want is so near, so I guess I just need to keep aiming for it.
First year went quickly, so I NEED to make the next two worth it!
Dotty
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